But I was still just sick with the worry of it and the anticipatory sadness — and then I would dare to feel hope and then back to anticipatory sadness. Repeat. I begged Sparkle to send me her great-grandchildren. It has been exhausting, as you can imagine.
When the ultrasound confirmed pregnancy, I just cried. I have cried a lot lately. Not surprising. We even saw a heartbeat!!!! ❤️
One of the things that happens when you have had a lot of bad news is that you do not always trust the good news. I feel that way, and I know it is 100% normal and understandable. It is also understandable and okay to need reassurance.
And so on Monday we will do another ultrasound with our Idaho Repro team, just to make sure it is real.
I do believe it — I already nominated the litter for the 2026 Futurity — but I just need to see them again, and make sure they seem to be settling in and growing (given the short cycle issue).
I just want to be sure the best news is really and truly for real.
Happy Saturday, friend.